Ok.

Alright. I made a blog because I can't get onto LiveJournal. It's been down for me for ALMOST TWELVE HOURS. I don't even know what it means and why it's not working for me and why it seems to be working for everyone else. It makes me sad. Like, legitimately upset and sad and depressed. I'm on a low dose of Paxil that has been helping with my panic attacks but I still get sad a lot and it's triggered pretty easily. I feel like I'm missing so much. I miss it. Yea, I'm addicted, I will admit that. And yeah, I could use some time away from it if I'm that addicted. But honestly? It's one of the few good things about my summer. A lot of things have been difficult for me. So when LJ stopped working around 3 PM (for me), I don't know, I stopped being okay. I need a higher dose of Paxil, I think. I don't know how to bring that up, though.

I get this message when I try to go to the site. Something like... the server isn't responding. I'm checking it right now. Okay, it says this:

"Safari can’t open the page “http://www.livejournal.com/” because the server where this page is located isn’t responding."

What the actual fuck?

Anyway, I don't have anything else to do other than sleep and read. I'm not tired and I've been reading for a few hours.

My best friend may be really, really sick. So I've just been really upset and sad lately. I didn't want to upset anyone on Twitter because they're all flailing about Kradam and Meganoop and whatnot. I feel really left out of the loop because of this LJ thing and it doesn't seem to be happening to anyone else anymore. It was earlier. But if it's happening tomorrow I don't know what I'll do. Be a depressed stupid idiot I guess. I already kind of am. But Kris's "Falling Slowly" is making it better.

I can't even write TAC because of this mood. It's late anyway. Not as late as I have been staying up, but still late.

Okay, I guess I better post this.

Sorry. I suck. This first entry fails.